Well now you can see my thoughts and all that jazz just go here or here for older thoughts
Oh god, I am quoting Fiona Apple now. Those of you who know me, know that I hate Fiona Apple. This fits thought.
Now what did I do that was so bad you ask... (deep breath) I lied to a group of people for 11 months. To tell the truth thought, that was the least of my crimes. I'm guilty, never said I was not. I've wracked my brain as to what I can do to make it up to these people. The best thing I have came up with is to just leave them alone. I hurt many of them a great deal and perhaps it would be best if I let them go on.
Now you are probley wondering what did you do that was so bad. I got them to care about a person that never existed, Claire Evans. I was a posure. As much as I hate to say it, I used them in a way. I got #overpower (on efnet) to care about her. I have spent the months or so feeling extremly guilty. I've learned many thing, also I have fucked up many things. What I am hopping to do though is to move on. It is in the past, and NOTHING I try to do will fix that. I can't call Mr. Peabody and The Way Back Machine. I wish there was more I could do. I wish I could take away the hurt, anger, and betrayal away from them all, but I can't. As much as I want to I can't do it. I am sure I will get some flames over this.. so you know the address flame away please, since you have nothing else better to do.
"I've been a bad, bad boy"
As some of you people know, or can tell I like Tori Amos. That is where Cornflake Boy came from. (One of her songs "Cornflake Girl" modified for the Tori illiterate).
So alittle about me and what I want to do with this page. My Name is Wes. I was born Septmeber 21 1976. I live in Misery, or Missouri. Same state really. My major is school is sort of Fashion, kind of confused right now as to what I want to do. My musical muses are Tori Amos and Sarah Mclachlan. I love comics, X-men being one of my favorite. Most of you who know me know that I love (not in the romantic sense) Ororo Munroe, aka Storm.
I play this cool card game called Overpower, based on comic book heroes. I am also into AD&D and recently Vampire:TM
Now what I want to do with this page is diffrent than most other fan pages. I will talk about my favorite songs and so forth, but I want to talk about why I like them and how they have affected me. I got inspired in a way by a friend (or is it former friend now?) of mine Brodkil. I will have a link up in due time so you can see his kick ass page.
Rach the future porno queen, was upset that I did not mention her before.. well girl here it is. Hope this inflates your ego some, but not too much :).
My Sirens, Goddesses, and Bitches.
Okay, like 99.9% of my cd's are women. Why? Well one WOMEN RULE, and two there is something about how they can cut through all the bullshit and get to the heart of something that I like. I love women. Growing up most of my idols where women, because of how strong they where, and cool. Maybe this is due to the fact that my mother was always there for me, not my father. Maybe it was because I had a strong relationship with my Grandmother. Who can tell. I revel in it thought. Women are cool, that is all I know.
Call me crazy but I think for a woman to be called a bitch is a huge compliment. To me a bitch is someone who will not take any shit, she is strong, she knows what she wants and she will get it. Now there are evil bitches, and good bitches. We all know that. Some bitches I like are Naomi Campbell and Madonna ( the Queen Bitch).
On the musical side, my sirens that I love to hear are Tori Amos , Sarah McLachlan, Ani Difranco, Shirley Manson of Garbage, Frente, Dave Mathew's Band (one of my non femme bands) Milla Jovovich, Poe, Tool (another non femme) Ruby, and a few others. Tori and Sarah are my top two easily. Tori helped me through a tough period of my life, without even knowing it. Now I am not some obssesed fan or anything. It's her music that moves me. The raw emotion, her poetic lyrics and the haunting sounds wrap me up. It's like I can FEEL the words. Sarah is my "misery chick" She knows what it is like to be low. Most of her songs are like that, or that is how I take it. "Angel" is one that I have listend to alot lately. Music is one of my true loves. There will always be a song that I can understand and relate to, a song that can lift me up and make me happy. Music is a part of my life.
Well I will have more up in due time. Check back often. I don't have much ot do at work, so this is what I work on now. You have to love a job that you can get paid to goof off at.